A haunting past.

Even though I try to put my past behind me, because that's always what people tell you to do, some things just come up. Like trust. I've had a lot of problems with trusting and people in the past. I've had a lot of people taking advantage of my trust, and then me getting hurt in the end. Also I've had important people in my life "replace me" so to say. So I have a giant fear of being replaced. So I have a hard time trusting people and a fear of being replaced. Great. Combine that with the extra crazy emotions of being on my period. Also mix in a past experience where a guy I was texting, texted me something that didn't really make sense to what I had said; and it turned out he meant to text it to another girl he had a thing with. Mix that all together and then I get a text from Josh that doesn't make sense with what I had said. Even though I trust him soooo much and I know how much he cares about me, and he would never want to hurt me in anyway. I can't help but freak out a little, with my haunting past full of pain and broken hearts looming right behind me. And it's not that I don't trust him, I don't trust myself. I don't trust myself to be better than my past.